I have given you parts and pieces of myself so precious to me that I cannot talk to anyone about them. I realised this while I was wondering what I could give you as a little parting gift since I didn't say a proper good-bye and I had never given you any gifts either.
I was looking for something both meaningful and magical, something decent but at the same time joyous, something that would feel like me looking at you: otherworldly yet tangible. How could I put my feelings into a tiny piece of matter, how could I expect a little physical thing contain so great a burden, convey so much as my emotions? And to make it even harder, I didn't want to overshare, to force any weight on your shoulders, to be explicit.
So I searched and searched and searched. I went through my whole life looking for bits of enchantment. It was everywhere, still, it wasn't new to you. I had shared so much with you in so little time. I had given you so many gifts without even realising it. We share the moon and the stars, my favourite music tracks, the hidden corners of the campus, and the pieces of language I like. And yet it seems as we could share tons more. I have kept quiet, bottled up the uncontainable since then, all for I don't even fancy telling others about these little magical spots in my life, to stain them by strangers' gazes.